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His Hands, His Feet, His Heart
"...Whatever you did for the least of these, you did for Me."-Matthew 25:40
Friday, May 16, 2014
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
When the Casserole Isn't Enough and Other Musings.
Most of us have done it at some point. “I’ll pray for you,”
we say, when really all we mean is that we are thinking about someone and
whatever they are going through. There are probably some of you who wouldn’t
even consider yourselves a “praying person”, yet you have said it from time to
time simply because it felt like the right thing to do. So why don’t we just
tell others, “Thinking of you”? Has it just become a coined phrase such as
asking someone how they are doing and getting a quick, “good” response back?
And, if we are offering sincere, intentional prayer up on others’ behalf, why? What does praying to an unseen God do for
someone who needs immediate comfort or help?
There
have been several incidences in friends’ lives where I have so badly wanted to “do
something”; to try to cushion the blow of whatever life has thrown at them so
to speak. Whether it is plan a girls’ night for a friend who is walking through
a break-up, or bringing a casserole to a family who has gone through a loss, we
just want to help ease others’ pain. While an ice cream sundae with an
acquaintance or a walk with a peer might be temporarily helpful, it does not
get to the core of the problem. It just
doesn’t truly help. In fact, there are many instances in which an
encouraging text or dropped off meal, however delicious, could seem like salt
in the wound. I believe this is because
while these things might serve our own need
to reach and “do our part”, it can sometimes accentuate the truth that
no one truly understands what the casserole-receiver (again, just go with it)
is going through. After all, if they did, they would be able to do more…to fix
things. At some point in life, we all
become all too aware that this just can’t happen no matter how much we wish it
could. I am not saying reaching out and offering love and support is
irrelevant; not in the least. Community is vital and whether someone empathizes
with our situation or not, we need the love, albeit imperfect, of those around
us. I AM saying that these things are equivalent to giving a dehydrated person
a sip of water- nice in the moment, but often just causes the thirsty to thirst
even more. So what can we do? I believe
that lifting others up to the throne of God is the only thing that truly
assists.
Think
about it: when you send good vibes or thoughts to another, however well
intentioned, they are powerless. After all, if you had the power to help what
that person was walking through, you might have prevented it all together. So
doesn’t it make sense to meet with the One who allowed it to happen in the
first place? It is there that we wrestle through the “why’s”. Prayer does not change God, but it does change
the one who prays. In talking to God, we are reminded of His sovereignty,
of His love, of His goodness. The more we get to know Him, the more we learn to
trust Him with our lives and the lives of those around us. Even when it is
hard. Even when things don’t make sense to our finite, human minds. In the
midst of a broken and heartbreaking world, there is Hope. Prayer is simply communication with God and
we cannot meet with the Creator without being changed for the good. He
DOES care about our needs, both big and
small. But how do we know that for sure? We
must look to the cross. There, in the place where Love was made perfect.
There, where the Holy died for the unholy, the unjustified given justice
through God’s own flesh and blood. Oh, friends, how He loves us. How He cares
for us. How He longs to be the Meeter of all our needs. Because of the cross,
as a Christian, I have been given full access to God’s holy throne. Hebrews
7:25 says it best,
“Therefore He is able to save completely those who come to
God through Him, because He always lives to intercede for them.”
He is constantly
interceding for those that put their faith in His perfect sacrifice. After the
casserole has been eaten, the night out is over, the vacation away ends, and
you are once again hit smack in the heart with the reality that didn’t
disappear, He remains. Always
mediating. Always standing in the gap.
Bearing our burdens for us and offering ourselves and those we love a
healing balm whose ingredients are kept in the Secret Place but given limitless
to those who will simply ask. The next time someone around you is facing a
trial or tribulation, won’t you first offer them the only gift that truly keeps
on giving, namely Christ? After all, we
can only be the hands and feet of Him whose heart we know. In light of this
truth, would you honor me with your prayer requests today? You can contact me
in whatever way seems fit. If email is more appropriate, my email is morganbcheek@gmail.com. It would be a
privilege. In a world of tragedies, busyness, mysteries, and day to day tasks,
He is our Rock. Let’s cling to Him today.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
We wait for what?
Waiting. None of us like to do it. Particularly in this
American culture, we are not forced to wait on much and we are all prone to get
impatient at a rapid pace if we have to do so. We live in a world of fast food,
quick marts, express and go’s, and the idea of waiting on anything tends to produce
anxiety and frustration in us all. So much of it falls back on the lack of
control that ensues during the wait; much of it is associated with our own
selfish desires and time tables. Think about it. What is the first thing we do
when we find ourselves in a traffic jam on the interstate? After huffing and
puffing about the fact we are going to be late to the place we are intending to
go, we then frantically try and figure out what is going on and how long it is
going to be until the traffic dissipates and life continues on as planned. Our schedule. Our timeline. Seemingly
little incidences like this happen to us often and serve as great reminders
that life does not revolve around us, but what happens when it isn’t just a
detour on the highway? What happens when
we are the one in the head on collision? When the cancer comes back? When
death comes suddenly? When the baby prayed for isn’t? When your job is no more?
When we are stopped in our tracks by the
life that God chose for us that is drastically different than the life we
foresaw? It is then that we can sometimes find ourselves paralyzed in the
waiting. Frozen in the unknown.
I have always craved knowledge; and not just in a scholastic
sense. As a child I became fixated on the connection between God and dinosaurs,
and read book after book about the topic. I watched the weather channel hour
after hour, and read the encyclopedias that collected dust on our bookshelves.
Why? I just wanted to know. When I
would try out for a sports team or play, I would spend all hours between
finding out if I made it obsessing over and analyzing whether I thought that I
did or not. It wasn’t necessarily about “making it” or not; it was more about just knowing.
We found out this week that the last known diagnosis we were
waiting to get results from was negative. No more known options. We sent off
more blood work and now will wait six months to see what rarer, rare diagnose
they might discover our girls carry. The chances that they will figure
something out are pretty high, but the likelihood that we will be two of a
handful of people with this diagnosis, without a strong prognosis, is equally
probable. Six months wait to find out blurry information? Sounds like this
knowledge girl’s nightmare. But God.
As I have been praying through this new chapter in our
family’s journey, the Lord has spoken to the depths of my soul concerning the
unknowns. In all authenticity, I have the tendency to look at others’ life
stories and question. Why do they have a diagnosis? Why did they find out so
quickly? I’m not asking for you to take it all away, Lord, (although that might
be nice as well!) I’m just asking for an explanation of some kind. If only I
could have a support group of mom’s that are walking this same road….if only we
could have a slight idea of what the future will look like for our family…if
only….
Patient and merciful as He is, God brought me to the pages
of His word and I have been nourished and refreshed by the truth that I am in
good company. After all, the Bible is full of people that have walked moments,
hours, even years of waiting for the unknown. Noah built an ark while the sun
was still shining. Abraham went to a country that he didn’t know; then offered
up his son without awareness that God would not make him follow through with
the sacrifice. The Israelites crossed over the Red Sea without the assurance
that it wouldn’t swallow them up. David and Goliath, Daniel and the lion’s den,
the list goes on and on. Story after story of those that trusted without borders.
How? They were comfortable with an
unknown circumstance in light of a known God. The best part is this: The
Lord says that, “…all these, though commended through their faith, did not
receive what was promised, since God had provided something better for us, that
apart from us they should not be made perfect”. (Hebrews 11:39). Apart from us.
Apart from your story, my story. All things are being tied together in light of
what we are truly waiting for: our Savior. The moment when, as He sees fit, He
unites His children with Himself and the trials are finished for good. No more
waiting; no more wandering in the desert of the unknown. One with Him forever. Because the truth is, we are all waiting on
that which we cannot see. How light and momentary these seasons of waiting will
seem in light of the One who is more than worth our wait. What you wait for,
what I wait for, is not a diagnosis. It isn’t a husband. It isn’t more money or
another job. It is not five more pounds lost. It isn’t a baby. It isn’t physical healing on
this side of heaven for ourselves or our loved ones. It’s Him.
No matter what these next six months bring, my hope and
expectation is that He brings me freedom from idolizing an answer. Independence of the knowledge that comes
from that which fades. Whatever that looks like for you, that is my prayer
for you as well. He is our Ultimate Answer. I am watching and waiting for Him
and Him alone (Psalm 59:9). Let it be known that He holds us all in the palm of His hands and knowledge of that trumps
any false security a diagnosis might bring. On this Mother’s Day, those of
you that have been hit head on with infertility, or the loss of a child or
mother, or motherhood that looks different than you anticipated, I pray He
empresses this truth firmly in your heart: Your hope is not found in that which
fades and changes; your hope is found in the Love that holds the keys to every
chapter of the book of the life He’s given you. And with Him, the last sentence
is always happily ever after. For eternity.
“But I will sing of Your strength; I will sing aloud of Your
steadfast love in the morning. For You have been to me a fortress and a refuge
in the day of my distress. O my Strength, I will sing praises to You, for You,
O God, are my fortress, the God who shows me steadfast love.”- Psalm 59:1-17
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Best Case Scenario: A Guest Post.
What is our
‘Best Case Scenario’?
I am totally
honored to get to share on Morgan’s blog today!
I thought it might be helpful for some people to know a little bit of my
story. So here are a few links to my
blog in case you want to know the whole story of our little lives. Click HERE and HERE to get a glimpse at our story.
My
name is Julie. I am married to the
absolute love of my life, Clay, and we have a two-and-a-half year old boy named
George. For the first 30 years of my
life, whether or not I would have admitted it at the time, I have lived a
pretty ‘blessed’ life. I, as a
Christian, tend to measure how great my life (or, really, anyone’s life) is by the ‘blessings’ in my life. Oh, I wonder how often we misuse this word
that the Lord puts such great emphasis on.
By
definition, ‘blessing’ means ‘God’s favor or protection.’ I think I’ve lived most of my life under that
assumption that a ‘blessing’ means something ‘good’ or ‘happy’. As we’ve walked through the last year of our
lives in our little family, the Lord has taught me that, sometimes, and maybe
even usually, God’s blessings come in the exact opposite form of something
‘good or happy’.
We
have two children; but our daughter, Nan, is with the Lord. She lived for thirty minutes after being
born, and Clay and I were able to hold her as she took her last breath. This moment has shown to be the greatest
blessing on our marriage. This moment,
as we watched our own flesh and bones leave all of the sin and anguish of this
broken world has breathed new life into our marriage. It has renewed our love for each other, for
our son, George, and most of all, it unearthed in us our most primitive love
for our own Creator. Never in my life
would I have described a situation such as this as a ‘blessing’. But we experienced so much of God’s favor,
His protection, and His redeeming love in that little hospital room, and we will
never be the same because of it.
I
share all of this background, because Morgan and I have shared countless
conversations over the past several months about the unexpected journeys the
Lord is taking each of us on. I’ve asked
almost every person I know to pray for the Cheek family, and I’ve had a few
people ask me the question that is written on all of our hearts, for all of our
individual lives.
What is their
[your, my, his, her, etc.] best-case scenario?
I
was sitting at lunch with my mom when she asked me this very question. And this response bubbled up from within me,
and I know the Lord has planted this seed of Truth in my heart.
Their [your, my,
his, her, etc.] best-case scenario is that Jesus would come back.
When
I was pregnant with Nan, the doctors were very sure that her life would be
hard, and therefore, gave us very little hope that we would ever be ‘normal’
again. I began to believe that anything
that is not ‘good’ or ‘happy’ could not be from the Lord. Then, Hugh reminded Clay and me of the single
most important thing we, as believers, can remember.
This is not our
home. This world is not as good as it gets.
To
an unbeliever, this world is as good as it gets. So anything that doesn’t make this life
better/more enjoyable/etc., really has no place in it, and we should get rid of
it, or hope for it to pass. But as a believer, this world is used to point
us to the Lord, who we will spend Eternity with, and the hard things- the
seasons of life that seem to split us in two- are used by the Lord to show us
Who He is.
I
have gone to Scripture so much throughout this season of my life, and have been
overwhelmed by the examples the Lord gives us in His Word of people He loves
deeply, that He showed His glory to through extraordinary circumstances. I think about Joseph being sold into slavery
by his brothers, Job losing absolutely everything, Jonah being swallowed by the
whale, and Paul imprisoned, just to name a few.
I think about the horrific circumstances of their lives, and how the
Lord used those circumstances to reveal more of Who He is with His people. It is probable that the world wouldn’t
describe these men as having ‘blessed lives’, but they knew that this world was
not their home. They knew that the best
was yet to come, and that it is coming.
I
look at my own life, and I can tell you that I would have been too scared to
choose the life the Lord has chosen for me.
And I don’t say this lightly, but I am thankful that He chose to give us
Nan. In those thirty minutes, the Lord
allowed us to experience the realness of the resurrection, and we will never
again be the same.
I
have no idea what you might be facing today.
Whatever your life looks like at this moment- I would challenge you to
pray that the Lord would remind your heart to long for your Heavenly home. I know that sounds like a heavy thing to
pray, but as believers, we should long for oneness with Christ. This world, as beautiful and comfortable as
it can be sometimes, is not our home.
But our eternal home is coming.
And this past year- as excruciatingly hard as it has been- has made my
heart excited to experience it.
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Comparisons.
We live in a world of comparisons. We compare relationships
and possessions. Jobs and seasons of life. Spouses or lack thereof. Children.
Bodies. Spirituality. Health. Friendships. Spirituality. Finances. Hardships.
Everything. Comparison truly is the thief of joy, and it doesn’t take long for
our minds to get us to a place of discontentment simply based at looking at
those around us. The problem with comparison is that, from a worldly
perspective, there is someone who is always going to be “better off” than us;
and there is someone who will always be “worse off” as well. It is all
relative. That being said, how fleeting and detrimental is this comparison game
we play. But how do we find contentment in a world that constantly invites
comparison? How do we get off the hamster wheel of always looking to others as
the barometer for our happiness or success? I believe this can only be done
when our vision is changed. When we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what
is unseen, since what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal (2.
Corinthians 4:18). Beyond that, we must fix our eyes on Jesus. Why- Because He
is the Author and the Perfector of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). I am forever
grateful that while He was enduring the cross for us, He was not playing the comparison
game. What He did for us makes our small comparisons look ridiculous. I mean,
if it was me, my dialogue would have gone as follows: “Wait- You want me to
carry this cross and go through this suffering for all of them? For what they
did? So they can live with us forever afterwards? That doesn’t seem fair!”
Jesus, however, being fully God and fully man, did not
compare because He found joy in the will of the Father. He knew if it was in
God’s Master Plan that it was good. He fixed His eyes on the eternal and not
the circumstances or His temporary thoughts or emotions. So, when we are in the
midst of wanting to compare any portion of our lives to the lives of those
around us, let’s only seek comparison in this:
“I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing
greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord”- Philippians 3:8.
Let’s set our thermometers of comparison to the one that
only finds its comparison against knowing Christ. And everything-everything- is
rags when compared to knowing Him. Why?- Because He’s conquered it all! He’s
conquered death itself. He’s the source of everything good and above all evil.
When compared, He makes all else look like nothing. The Lord offers us up a
comparison that will actually bring freedom, not enslavement! It’s so easy for
me to compare the challenges of our life to others. Why do our girls have such
difficulty with seemingly easy movements? Why do so many people not have to
spend their days in therapy and doctors’ appointments? (Although I know many
also do!) And social media can make it even worse. (Why does that girl that I’m
not even sure I actually know have a two month old that is doing cartwheels
already!?) But you know, while I sit and play the comparison game, playing
essentially in the mudpies of this earth, I know the Lord is patiently smiling,
aware of the treasures that await. As I look to Him and not to those around me,
He brings me joy in the here and now and changes my blurry vision to His
perfect vision; my tiny perspective to His infinite perspective; the silly
comparisons I choose to look at to the only comparison that matters. Friends, everything
other than knowing Christ is a loss. It is not because Hugh and I are “good
people” that we are able to walk through this journey with hope. Any of you who
know as at all know that to be true. We are weak and sinful, and it is quite
the opposite. We are at our weakest, but in our weakness, He continues to prove
Himself strong and His mighty power is displayed. Compared to the hope we have
in that, all other comparisons fade to dust. Let’s lean on His promises today.
He is worthy.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Lessons learned.
I woke up with tears brimming in my eyes today. Tears of joy
and of gratitude for all that the next few days represent. This time last year,
I was headed to what would be my last doctor’s appointment before our lives
were forever changed for the good by our baby girls. For the good. I was
uncomfortable, sick, exhausted (or so I thought… I didn’t quite understand what
exhaustion was before I went through the newborn trenches), and mostly anxious
for getting our baby girls here “happy and healthy” as we all say (That phrase
now is one of my pet peeves, which will be addressed at a later time). We had
been praying the Lord would bring us our girls in His perfect timing, not one
day sooner or one day later. Hugh had memorized Psalm 139 which is more
symbolic than I could have ever known, and we were a lot of things. We were
mainly clueless. The beauty of parenthood. We all start out that way, so
blissfully ignorant. We have never met our little ones, and we all prepare as
best as we can for the journey to come. Girls,
on April 23, 2013, there was nothing that could have prepared daddy and I for
the beauty and joy that was around the corner on April 24, 2013. There are
more lessons that the Lord has taught us through your sweet lives than we could
recount, many that are written on the pages of this blog. I will not be able to
word or express all that I want to share
with the world as we await your first birthday tomorrow, but I want to give it
a try because daddy and I are indebted
to you and the lessons that we have learned through your little lives already. In
a sense, this is a letter to You, my God; my version of a psalm of praise for
giving us more than we could possibly ask for or imagine. (Ephesians 3:20).
When we first found out we were going to have twins, I
reacted as gracefully as it comes: I cried profusely as the ultrasound tech
attempted to find two heartbeats through my hysterics. She left the room to “give
us a moment” (yes, it was awkward), and when Hugh asked me what I was crying
for, I said, “I’m scared”. He responded, “Of what?” I quickly sobbed back, “The
rest of our lives.” Girls, momma is no
longer scared. While you have already brought more twists and turns than we
could have ever anticipated, I have learned to celebrate each and every moment
of each and every day because of you. I have seen that there is nothing to fear
around the corner because God is already there. I never thought I could have
survived a year with twins, much less a year with twins as special as you two.
But you know what? God is good and He
has already walked this road for us therefore with Him, I have been able to
step forward with confidence that whatever comes next is for His glory and our
good.
Ally Ruth and Bailey Grace, we are proud of who you are. Not
only that, but we wouldn’t want you to be any different. Your beauty radiates
from the inside out. Ally Ruth: your smile is absolutely contagious. Bailey
Grace: your easy-going attitude is something that the rest of us would be wise
to follow suit on. You both simply make people happy by your mere presence. The
best part about this is: it isn’t
because of anything you have done or are doing; it’s merely because of who you
are as a whole. I could write a novel on all the amazing qualities you possess,
but I would be amiss because that’s another lesson we have learned: it is not about you. Or me. Or any of us.
It is about Him. You have reminded us that we can see Him in anything and everything,
even our worst nightmares, if we just would choose to look. We are so very proud of you both for no
reason other than that you are who you are.
There is so much to celebrate tomorrow, but the fact that
you are here “happy and healthy” will not be one of them. Karni Liddell, a Paralympics
athlete that happens to have Spinal Muscular Atrophy, has said, “What does that
even mean?” We have all said it, myself included, but here is the truth: we didn’t just want you here “happy and
healthy”. We wanted you here so you could live the lives that God intended you
to live, which would ultimately bring eternal joy that stems beyond any
temporary happiness or pseudo-healthiness. And, however long He sees fit to
keep all of us on this side of heaven, we will all continue to try and live
that out, albeit imperfectly. The thing is, you both already seem to be more
comfortable in your own skin than most people I know… and that’s contagious. You live life above the circumstances around
you, and have taught us to do the same. Sure, we might have thought your first
year of life would have included more milestones and less doctor’s
appointments; more careless living and less therapy appointments. But, watching you both accept each day with all
it entails which such an attitude of contentment and trust has taught your
daddy and me to do the same and for that, we wouldn’t change a second of it. I
could go on for days, but it is time to feed you guys and I want to breathe in
these moments. Bottom line is this: If I could go back and do it ALL again-the
constant morning sickness that never seemed to end, the sleepless nights, the
unknowns, the worries, the testing, the sheer terror that came the moment I
realized that my heart was sliced in two and came out in the form of two
precious, beautiful baby girls- I would
do it again a hundred times fold. To call being your mommy a privilege would
be an understatement. I know I don’t deserve to be. All praise, glory, and
honor to the One who gives us grace upon grace in this journey. Lord, THANK YOU. Bailey Grace and Ally
Ruth Cheek: we celebrate you today, tomorrow, and every day after that. Happy
almost Birthday, sweet girls!
Monday, April 21, 2014
Fearless.
I am terrified of driving in a thunderstorm. I’m not talking
about a little drizzle on your windshield. I’m talking dark contrast up ahead
with sudden buckets of water streaming down your car. I have been this way for
as long as I can remember. Some might think it is because I have been in a
couple of fairly serious wrecks, which sounds appropriate until you realize
that both of those occurred on extraordinarily sunny days. It is just one of
those things I suppose. We all have them. Those fears that cripple us; the ones
that wake us up in the middle of the night, that cause us to stop in our
tracks. They can be as big as death itself or as small as a rain cloud. Either
way, it all stems from the same place. Fear.
I have watched
several people I know walk through absolutely heart wrenching seasons this
year. Friends who have, to put it bluntly, faced their worst nightmares as
their new reality. From the outside in, many of you might see our family’s
situation as just that. In many ways, you wouldn’t be far from the truth. Our
girls still remain undiagnosed. We are in the midst of testing for a couple
things that would be on our “worst nightmare” list, and if those come back
negative, we will be on the neurologist and geneticist’s list as having
something really,really rare that might leave us with a lifetime of unknowns.
If we are only two of a handful of people to have a disorder, the likelihood of
having a true prognosis is not high. And if I can be candid, this reality full
of years of what-ifs and who-knows is almost as terrifying as some of the
diagnoses we are waiting to hear back on. We just want to know what we are facing.
If we just knew more about the storm
ahead, things would be better. Right?
While this may sound rational, I am convinced this is not
the case. Think about it. What if God wrote all the details of your story down
for you to read. The different seasons that you would walk through. The highs
and lows. Things as raw and real as the day you died. The day your children
would die. The cause of these deaths. If you would even be able to have
children at all. If you would get married at all. If your loved ones would get
cancer. EVERYTHING. Talk about living in fear. This would absolutely cripple us
all. Friends, I am convinced that God in His wisdom does not tell us all the
details because He delights in walking us through the journey. He wrote it. He
has already walked it. And, He has conquered the good, the bad, and the ugly
through His death on the cross. He does not give us strength for what will
occur tomorrow; but He does promise strength for today. As Psalm 84:7 more
eloquently puts it, He walks us through this pilgrimage strength to strength.
Grace for today. Because of Christ, we no longer have to fear tomorrow or waste
moments worrying about whether or not we will be able to handle all that it may
hold. Without God’s saving action in our lives, we would be absolutely
powerless to walk through the brokenness and unknowns of tomorrow, much less
today. With it, however, we are secure. We can be fearless. My friends Julie
and Hannah and their husbands come to mind. Neither of them know the other one,
however, they both are walking through similar journeys that the world would
call tragic. But God intended it for
good. I am watching them walk through something that even they would have said,
“I could never make it through if _______happened.” In their weakness, God has
made Himself known and portrayed His strength and they are not only “making it”;
an incredible testimony is being left for the glory of God and His kingdom
come. And I can imagine that once you have watched the Lord walk you through
the unfathomable, your trust and foundation in His promises reaches a level
that is unshakeable.
So what about you? The fears you have do not have to be
monumental; they just have to be monumental to you. The Lord knows each of our
hearts and He cares about all the details of our lives. For me, instead of
living in fear of the future or fear of what it might entail, I want to live in
light of the glorious news that Christ promises to carry us through every
moment of every season, and that He will give us the ability to faithfully
serve Him no matter what that looks like. Our hope does not rest in a diagnosis, whether it be what the world would consider good or bad. In God's kingdom, there is no such thing as a bad diagnosis because it is all in His hands and for His good. No fear. Simply resting in His
promises. Whether you are stumbling through your hardest days yet or coasting
by without a care in the world, I pray you know that He wants to be your
Burden-Bearer. No matter what storm clouds are ahead, He has already navigated
the way to the eternal sunshine that is up ahead. He’s got this! There is freedom in the fearlessness.
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